Lost

I have 2 days left of the program and I feel more lost than I did last week. I am back in a depression cycle and cannot see the light right now. I am incredibly insecure with who I am and what I want to do with my life. Everything looks really gloomy right now, and I’m trying to accept that it’s ok.

Trying to give myself grace and it’s hard.

My brain keeps telling me I should be doing this, like this person is, “look how well they’re handling life’s circumstances” and then I start spiraling. I can’t stop the comparison and fear that my way of life and being is affecting my kids and something is wrong with me.

It also doesn’t help that I can’t find a psychiatrist with any openings until late July or August,

Feeling discouraged but my positive affirmation for the day:

I am able to change.

*I wrote this blog post yesterday when I was in a dark place and today I feel so much better! My affirmation was on point. Cheers to one more day and being done with this part of my chapter and getting back to me.