Learning and unlearning

The sign I needed today.

Ok ok, it’s been a minute!

If you follow along on Instagram you may have heard that last week was really tough. I canceled a therapy appointment with a new provider because I couldn’t get myself to commit to another intake appointment. I voiced my concern to a dear friend and she didn’t judge me but asked what my body was telling me. My body told me sleep. I met up with her to talk through my feelings and it helped TREMENDOUSLY. I canceled the appointment, asked my Mom to watch Luca a little longer because I was feeling down, and I SLEPT FOR 2.5 HOURS! After that nap, I felt SO good. Listening to my body is something I’m learning to do and I think it’s paying off. When is the last time you listened to your body and gave yourself grace?

SIDE NOTE: My friend also left me with this tidbit… women basically endure 3 weeks of body changes, EVERY MONTH. Ovulating, going through 4 different cycles in less than a month… No wonder I feel crazy emotions the week before my period. I never track it anymore but am starting NOW.

I also have had a breakthrough with my motivation to workout. Another fabulous friend sent me a video explaining how dedication is the motivation you need. I started thinking about that and realized I dedicate time for myself for self-care (nails, hair, shopping etc.) but I don’t prioritize self care as exercise. Once I realized that, I realized I can be dedicated AND not liking working out. I can’t wait to FEEL like working out…motivation IS the dedication. MIND BLOWN. 🤯

I am committed to putting in the work and dedication for the entire month of August. I will work out every day starting August 1st, no days off (not hardcore just consistency) and I know I can do it. This is where YOU come in. Do you need an accountability buddy? Do you need to take a stupid walk for your mental health? Do you need a group of women who are trying to understand life’s crazy ride? If YES, holla at your girl and I will coordinate schedules and find something that works for most. SO again, whoever wants to form a little walk group (kids or no kids) and want to talk about life’s crazy ride, please reach out.

All right now for this distorted thinking pattern I am trying to unlearn.

My brain works in such a way that it’s either all or nothing with my thinking, decisions, picking a right and wrong behavior, etc. When it comes to thinking like this I can’t see the middle or common ground. When I was struggling with organic vs non organic, my sweet girlfriend told me that it can be BOTH. Again 🤯 - I am such a feeler and believer that one action is correct and one is wrong. I’ve never been able to live with both of anything and it is time to try.

I still need more input on recycling, composting and trashing, but hey I know I can’t learn, unlearn AND know EVERYTHING.

I can’t wait to dig in to this more and try to figure out this next piece of the puzzle. You know I’ll keep you updated! 😉

I am loving finding my people in this crazy ride called life. LOVE YOU ALL.

“Friends are the best kind of therapy.”

My weekly jam getting me through the daily grind: Sam Smith “Love Me More”